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Very, very important journal entry. Please read. 
My Older Journals.
I promise that I will stop bombarding you all with journals now, but this is genuinely very important.
For anyone who doesn't know me that well/is a new watcher of mine, I'm going to slightly recap what happened around this time last year: I had surgery to remove my right ovary after it was occupied by a watermelon-sized tumour. The tumour in question is so ridiculously rare that there are doctors in Belfast and London fighting to head my case, putting immense pressure on my consultant here at home.
She called yesterday to say that my blood results had come back from London and she wanted to discuss the results. I have to admit that I was a little worried initially (especially as I'm going on holiday tomorrow), but a few good friends reassured me that I was going to be okay.
I've just returned from the visit: there's a chance the tumour is re-growing in my left ovary.
While I'm glad this possibility is caught at an early stage, I just...I have no words. My life has only started to get on track after the last operation, now this happens? I have no words. Not only that, but if the tumour is big enough/re-appears often enough in the left ovary, they'll have to remove it completely.
Do you know what that means? No periods, meaning no chance of me having a baby.
My consultant wants to wait until I come back from holiday to do the tests, but I doubt I'll get much of a holiday with worrying. When I do come back, however, she wants to do a series of tests, including the only test that I cannot bare to watch when watching House - where they stick a camera down your throat.
Fuck my life. Seriously, FML.
I just cannot escape the prospect that the tumour constantly re-appearing will dominate my life; how am I supposed to be educated, have a job etc if I'll have to have an annual operation? This year nearly killed me in terms of schoolwork; from September to May, I was only in school Monday-Friday three times.
In terms of critique, I think I'll be taking a break. The news rendered me an void, emotionless shell when I heard, don't I deserve to relax?
Please wish that I have a good holiday. Who knows, it might even inspire me to have one?
~Box of Awesome~
for the three month sub.
for the six month sub.
~People who watch me~
~I LOVE :U~
~Great artists~
Miserable
95% of people who know me love me...come share the love! 
Devious Comments
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I don't care what you're doing so much as the idiotic way you're doing it.
Vincent Valentine~FFVII
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“If everyone demanded peace instead of another television set, then there'd be peace.”
John Lennon (1940-1980)
And the sign said long haired freaky people need not apply.
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ಠ3ಠ GeT oFf My LaWn.
ಠ_ಠ ಥ_ಥ ಡ_ಡ ఠ_ఠ อ้_อ้ อ_อ ತ_ತ ٩͡๏̯͡๏۶ ๏̯๏ * ∆ *
And I hope your surgeries go well and that you feel better! T_T
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I hope you get well!
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Keep your head up, even if you don't like what you see.
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Make everything exciting, so there's a story to tell later.
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If you don't understand the Tsubasa Chronicle Manga, JOIN THE CLUB
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Yes, Fai is gay, but that doesn't mean I can't fangirl over him.
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If death is the answer to love's mysteries,
Then bleed on my darling to the sound of a dream
"i hate people who talk to other people like they're a god, and i hate people who make up shit characters and claims companies stole them from them"
lol i saw your posts on Ravda, bravo. help is needed for her.
and i read your article
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"Do what you want, is that what you wana hear? Well I can't let you do it, because if you die on me, I'm guna have nightmares." <Cloud
I ended up here randomly...so, have a nice day!
I read your 'Sue article.
I think it's very well written and true!
Do you write? (I'm writing a novel.)
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“Imagination is stronger than knowledge, myth is more potent than history, dreams are more powerful than facts, hope always triumphs over experience, laughter is the cure for grief, love is stronger than death.”
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